Amazon Trip

I am thrilled to say that I am halfway through being confirmed for my set of flights to and from Salvador and Manaus to go see the Amazon, but at a high price... I insulted my mom and gave her no respect, the cost of the airfare alone is ridiculously expensive, and who knows if everything will go smoothly even then? I feel disappointed in myself... I like to think that I have a good hold on my actions but I find that sometimes I breach that boundary and behave appallingly, like how I did to my mom, who was only trying to help. I've been under some emotion stress lately, and perhaps that has something to do with it, but really there is no excuse. The hardest part about this, though, is the fact that I have a really hard time forgiving myself whenever things like this happen-- so even if the person I have offended forgave me long ago, I cannot seem to be able to forgive myself. It's rough. It's times like these that I just wish I wasn't around people so I could stop hurting everyone. :-/